Well this is a bit of a deja-vu. A few months ago I wrote a post about starting up this blog again and hoping to carry on and create a great place full of information, advice, humour and life-lesson type things. It's safe to say that plan didn't go... well... to plan. Basically sixth-form, revision and exams got the better of me and made me a very moody, miserable, sad, anxious 18 year old.
But I've finished school forever now (hallelujah!), am NOT going to university and have absolutely no clue what so ever on what I'm going to do with my future. So I thought I'd start here. I started this blog in 2012 and was having a lot of fun with it until school really got me down (I'm not one for compulsory education or being told what to do!) which irritated me immensely because now I will always have the unanswered question in the back of my mind of "I wonder where my blog would be now if I had carried on?". I decided that I'm going to try my best to get it as amazing as I can and hope that it grows and that what I write is helpful and interesting to read to a wide range of people.
But this is just the beginning of an even bigger plan, YouTube. I've wanted to make YouTube videos since I was 14 but I've always made excuses for myself: "I'm too young to put myself in the eye of total strangers", "It will get in the way of my exams and school", "If people at school find out they'll make fun of me" etc. At first it looked like a really fun thing to do in my spare time as a hobby, but now the fact that people actually have it as a career made it even more appealing as (if for some reason people did actually like reading what I wrote or watching my YouTube content) I also could turn a hobby into a living as it seems like the only career I know of that actually interests me. Well I have no more excuses now, I'm legally an adult, I have no school or exams to worry about and have literally all the time in the world to do whatever I want.
So basically I'm going to use my blog as a fun way to increase my courage and confidence in terms of talking to you guys and talking to other bloggers that I follow so hopefully in the not-so-distant future I can start making YouTube videos. This is a big step for me as, for someone who has extreme social anxiety, even leaving a comment on a blog post or YouTube video was out of the question because the shear thought that someone could reply to it, ask me a question about it, argue about it, hate on me for it, made me incredibly anxious and scared.
I know that many people may be tired of hearing about anxiety on YouTube or blogs, but I think there's a reason for anxious people to turn to this. It takes the physical 'social' part out of socialising, as you're not actually directly talking to someone and are able to say what you want in one go without being interrupted or being able to see the persons reaction straight away. It makes it slightly easier to voice your opinion without being as scared, thus why I think so many people who suffer from anxiety have ended up writing blogs or on YouTube.
Anyways, I just wanted to write this re-introduction to say 'hello' again and voice my little plan here. I have an incredibly eclectic range of hobbies and interests that I will want to blog or YouTube about so here is a list of things I might talk about and hopefully will interest at least some people:
- Make up
- Skincare/ beauty stuff
- Dealing with/ preventing/ products for face and body acne
- Book favourites, reviews or recommendations
- Teenager/ high school advice
- Social anxiety advice
- Gaming (YouTube)
- Music favourites/ recommendations
- Film favourites/ recommendations
- Healthy eating
- How to stay fit and healthy at school
- Revision/ organisation advice
- Beauty on a budget
- Fashion on a budget
- Inspirational quotes of the day/week
- Choosing GCSE/ A-level subject advice/ experience
- Fun challenges, tests, tags and quizzes (YouTube)
And probably a billion other things I couldn't think of in the last 3 minutes. Some of these things I will do just because they're hobbies/ things I find fun and interesting, others like the advice topics I want to write/ talk about because I know growing up and being in high school I would have loved to have been able to read such advice or hear from people who have gone through the same thing and have the experience to talk about it, so I want to give that opportunity to other people.
So to sum up: Hello, I'm scared, I don't know what I'm doing, but I'm going to try damn well hard to have fun and do this thing right.
TTFN! :) x
TTFN! :) x